broken record.

I'm a "wear my emotions all over my sleeve" kind of person.

I've tried caring less, saying "who cares", letting things "roll off my back"...

but yah, not working.

Kudos to you if you can do that - I wish you well, 

and if you want to impart your obvious wisdom on me, 

please, text me immediately.

I'm basically a broken record at this point,

I'm pretty sure I've written a variation of this blog post before.

Why am I not learning anything from my past experience?

Can I blame the fake blond hair? Pregnancy hormones?

I've decided to try to spin it into something positive.

I'm passionate! If my fault is that I care too much, then...

what's the problem?

The PROBLEM, dear self, is that...

it makes you stressed out.

It makes you feel disrespected.

It  makes you feel "less than".

(An uncomfortable place to be)

So what I do I do? How do I change this?

I have a son on the way.

Do I want him to grow up with a Mom that

seems angry a lot because of people/things

not doing things the way I would want them done?

Do I drop the things in my life that aren't working?

Say goodbye to the things that are "say goodbyeble?"

(Goodbyeable? I blame that most definitely on the fake blond hair.)

The thing is - I can't change you/the situation.

I can't change who you are, how you deal, etc.

I can change MYSELF.

Fix my flaws, work on how I react.

Why is that so hard?

Can someone please take me on vacation now please.